Sertraline
This was the first song recorded for the album. I had been working on the beat for about a week. I wrote the record in the Solarium, went outside to meditate, went to check my phone after and found out my dad had a stroke. It was a really weird day for me. This record is an attempt into what anxiety feels like, and the ways we as humans tend to use shit to cope by keeping the mind stimulated.
Why the highs so high up
And lows feel so hard
Running circles like a go cart, heart race, if you wanna roll big one, I’ll partake
Can’t stay in one place too long
My memory’s tainted for good reason
Now we're in the fall and it’s hood season
Being me's hard make it look easy
Nah Nah Nah
Can’t wallow in pain for long
Gotta fight a war and then come home
That’s why I’m on edge and I’m cut throat
In my pain I sang this song
Melodies, soul search
Thinking that my mind hit a growthspurt
Melodies, hella dreams, scary things, everything
Devil, enemies, hate my messaging
Melodies, vivid dreams, dead roses in the centerpiece
Everything, hating, means nothing to a mutherfucking boss
Sorry that im so pissed off, Sorry that im bogus Ugh
Lemme call my queen, ima fuck her on the spot
Pussy like oh my gosh, see im running from my problems
Like im running from the cops, see the pain don't stop
Running circles like a go cart, heart race, if you wanna roll big one, I’ll partake
This is not a simulation
Melodies, hella dreams, scary things, everything
Devil, enemies, hate my messaging
Melodies, vivid dreams, dead roses in the centerpiece
Everything, hating, means nothing to a mutherfucking boss
Sorry that im so pissed off, Sorry that im bogus Ugh
Lemme call my queen, ima fuck her on the spot
Pussy like oh my gosh, see im running from my problems
Like im running from the cops, see the pain don't stop
Running circles like a go cart, heart race, if you wanna roll big one, I’ll partake
If you wanna go somewhere & parlay
Yeah my dick game crazy, part snake
Every time I go crazy, the art's great
If wanna roll a big one, we’ll partake